Posts Tagged ‘selflove’

Desire that never sleeps seldom gets a good nights rest…Restlessly tossing and turning waiting for the initiation with only one thought on the mind… I wanna explode!!!

I wanna flood the surface of passion and emerge myself in the depths of fantasy…

Please me beyond satisfaction…

Any clothing is a distraction…

I’m only here for one thing.

Previous conversations have already set the stage for an anticipated display of pure pleasure so I’m eagerly waiting to begin…

Completely saturated before the foreplay even began, I’m more than ready…

Licking it, sucking it, please don’t tease me any longer…

I can feel it throb.

No doubt that I enjoy the luxury of my choice to explore without attachment…

The freedom to employ any opportunity equally without care or shame… 

But… I just have one question before you enter me…

Do you have a condom?
-Nik 
*Safe sex should never be optional. Protect yourself friends! Then be as freaky as you wanna!!! 😊😘

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Posted: July 2, 2016 in Poetry, Relationships, Uncategorized
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It’s okay to let go,Free yourself…

It’s okay to say no,

Respect yourself…

The emotional sin of allowing ones self to carry the pieces of a broken heart while constantly wading in the toxic waters of infidelity and untruths is arguably self inflicted.

You’re the only participant in your mission to diminishing your worth yet you attempt to put the blame on one that has proven to be repetitively untrustworthy…

Is it worth it all?

Have you experienced any benefits or progression toward the happiness of yourself?

The overflow of tears that broke the levies to your soul, what do they account for?

Has every effort you’ve exuded to perusing atonement left you more restless, more vulnerable, more susceptible to the bullshit? 

Covet your energy and reclaim your pride, your dignity, your respect…

Accountability is necessary so that blame can become irrelevant.

The weight of love felt for ones self should always tip the scale in your favor…

Remember that respect and trust are never conditional and will always create chaos when not honored.

Be strong enough to repair any situation that can be remedied but also be wise enough to walk away from what’s beyond repair.

The cycle of self destruction begins with you and ultimately ends with you…

You have the power to change any situation that isn’t inspiring and motivating you toward something greater.

The thought that someone else could possess such an abundance of power over you is a mockery to the creation of self love.

Make yourself proud,

It’s okay…
-Nik 

You offer me honesty now that you’ve decided you’re done, but I refuse to accept it…
Conversations about how I misinterpreted our situation only feels like a slap of rejection…
The love I felt and tears I’ve cried were nothing more than my heart overreacting to the faux feelings you projected.
I understand that “all is fair in love and war” and “when it’s over it’s over”…
But I can’t easily claim that frame of mind when everything felt so real.
Just pondering this one sided display of affection only stunts my progression…
Do I digress and repress the overwhelming feeling to assassinate my character through text or to make that anonymous call just to further explain the level of hurt I’m feeling (which by the way has been communicated countless times)?
Do I wreck my mind searching for reasons within myself to make sense of why his “love” has not nor will it ever reach the intensity of the love I feel?
When you hear “we’re through” or “I just don’t feel the same anymore”, is it emotionally immature to try to fight for what your heart won’t accept?
Fact is…
I’ve done all of those things more times than I’m willing to admit.
All the unnecessary shit we self induce to prevent accepting what’s apparent…
Maybe he isn’t ready…
Maybe it isn’t you he desires…
Maybe the love he once felt has expired…
Whatever the reason for the change of heart or mind, respecting and understanding that it’s time to move on is always obvious when words aren’t as kind and dispositions are always opposing.
I give up!!!
I can’t live another minute feeling reduced by my OWN actions…
I can’t begin another day wondering why and what could’ve been…
Reality has finally become undeniable and my ego and dignity has resurrected just in time to save me by uttering two simple words…
FUCK HIM…

-Nik
Xoxo

Sometimes all it takes is two simple words… Lol! We all have experienced that one person that’s so hard to emotionally detach ourselves from no matter how hard we try. Being someone who lived in this nightmare more than a few times, my advice is to just let it burn… No matter how hard it is to let go of what you believe you love, you have to make that step to free yourself. You’re worth so much more than what you’re allowing yourself to become. Tell me your thoughts and experiences surrounding this topic! When do you stop trying? Do you try even when you know it’s over? I’d love to hear what you guys think! 💋